You may hesitate to seek outside help because you feel like a failure. You are not a failure. Stop condemning yourself, and stop hiding the truth of your situation. Accepting and being honest about your circumstances is wise and mature.
Cynthia Yates tells about a time when a friend came to her home after the divorce and discovered Cynthia's true situation: "One day a friend came to visit and found me in the corner of my kitchen in a fetal position, drooling out of the corner of my mouth. I was rocking back and forth.
"On the outside I had looked like I was managing, but inside I was so scared.
"You could be talking to somebody who looks perfect on the outside but doesn't have a cracker in the cupboard at home. Is it pride? Is it fear that people will think you failed in life? We all fail."
Being honest with your friends will help ease your burdens. Don't cause your friends to miss out on God's miraculous answers to prayer.
In the Bible, four men carried their paralyzed friend to Jesus to be healed. When they arrived, the crowd was so thick they could not get close to Jesus. They decided to make an opening in the roof above Jesus and lower their friend through the roof.
"When Jesus saw their faith, he said to the paralytic, 'Son, your sins are forgiven. . . . I tell you, get up, take your mat and go home.' He got up, took his mat and walked out in full view of them all. This amazed everyone and they praised God, saying, 'We have never seen anything like this!'" (Mark 2:5, 11-12).